May 30, 2009

Fuck fuck fuck shit

What the hell is my problem?

I ruined everything I had going for myself with- guess what- a lie. Shocker, right? I doubt it surprises most anyone, really.

It hurts. I want him back. Well, hell, I want to know if I lost him first. He isn’t speaking to me. It’s been an hour, and I already feel so empty inside.

Here’s a reason: I lost him, all because I wanted him to think I was better than I was, when he already thought I was great as I was. I’m such an idiot.